What am I even doing?

It’s been a strangely useful time, this in between time, this not quite dancing together time.

When you’re working with limits things become clear quickly. The multi-part, multi-city project I thought I’d be focusing on now is clearly going to become a community project, and that’s exciting - time to let go after wrapping myself so tightly in the plotting of moves, after move, after move.

I’m back in studios for the first time in months, I’m making solo work - the deep opposite of 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers, but still so much bad-baby-Fosse-jazz in my body that’s already seeping into this project. Below are some thoughts I’m thinking, some questions I’m running my hands over, getting my back up against.

Last time I was writing about the difficulty of understanding where my body can go in space. Now I’m making solo work for what might end up being a very particular space (more on that in another post…later…maybe) and again, limitations create clarity.

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Quarantine Projects

I miss choreography.

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Throughout this quarantine I’ve been trying different strategies for making work. Creating movement from my own body, making a video, sending it to collaborators. Working from scores, looking at old work and reimagining it, relearning it. None of this feels like being in a studio, and none of this felt like I was making or experiencing anything, the best way I can describe it is that anything I’ve made in in the past three months doesn’t feel like it’s been made “in real time” but like I was making it later, or before, not now.

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I came back to my house after being away for almost three months. The first thing I did was to purge objects in my room, clothes from my drawers and books from my shelves. I thought of this as more of a time filling activity rather than a space making one. But also I’d felt a kind of energetic weight fall towards me walking into my little Brooklyn bedroom for the first time in ten weeks. I knew that after being absent for so long my intuition as to what needed to stay and what was carrying a bad charge would be good, and I put it to work. I realized I hang on to a lot of gifts I don’t like.

After I purged I started making these little object ikebana. I wanted to touch and see the things I kept and to know their secrets. I asked them how they wanted to be or fall, and then I nudged them into lines and waves or blew on them so they would turn or scatter. I realized that this was the part of making dances that I missed, the part where you put your body in conversation. I thought this might be an exercise in composition, and it is partly. I’ve been struggling to articulate to myself lately how I want myself and my dancers to relate to space/spacing literally stuck on the simple question: where do the bodies go?

In 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers one of many questions I’m asking is what fades away or recedes from the eye? What about that kind of movement or gesture fundamentally changes when it’s foregrounded.

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I’m not sure what these are telling me yet. Maybe I’ll post more later. As I worked these out I realized I remembered going to see Camille Henrot’s The Pale Fox at the New Museum, and how excited I was meeting her work. Maybe this is a reminder that once it helped me to think about choreography as installation, and that I should return to that mode.

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1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers at the Brick!

We have a show at the Brick this Summer! 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers is coming to the Brick in Williamsburg July 31st, August 1st and 2nd!

This performance will be the first time this project is performed in an evening length format and I’m really honored and happy that it’s happening at the Brick.

1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers is an ongoing choreographic project I began in 2019. I’ve struggled to articulate the ambitions of this project. As an idea it seems like a joke, but the title is literal. The performance will eventually be 1000 moves, for back up dancers. (This summer’s performance we’ll probably be working with moves 1-250.) In a way few projects have done it satisfies a myriad of desires I have as an artist. My compulsion towards “collections” or looking at live performance as a museum of movement. My desire for “modular” dances, the way I want to create work that like a Rubik’s cube can have all its parts shifted, presenting new combinations and facets, while remaining the same essential thing. Finally, I think it might be the answer to a question I have, “How, with the limited funding of an independent artist, do I carry my work outside of New York? Does touring even exist as a model anymore?” When you make a modular dance you can take it apart and carry it with you more easily. You can develop new parts to fit together with old parts on new bodies in new spaces. As this project continues it will live in bodies in Chicago, maybe New Orleans, maybe LA.

Before it can travel, it needs a home, and I’m really happy to find one for this version of the project at the Brick.

Patreon Page is Up!

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I started a Patreon page this month, and while I’m still trying to figure out how to make a more streamlined button for it, you can visit it here

I decided to move away from the kickstarter or indiegogo model of fundraising for a couple of reasons, and I wanted to share those reasons and some thoughts I’m having about fundraising as an individual artist.

I started this year asking what it is I want to be growing in my artistic practices, where I wanted my work to go or to take me. It’s been the focus of 2019. One of the first things that came up for me was that I no longer wanted to define myself as only a dance artist. I wanted to acknowledge my other practices involving text, embroidery, sound and slide-shows as equally important to my dances, and as choreographic practices in themselves.

The second thing that came up for me was that I needed to acknowledge the way I work in sets, collections or archives. I look at dances as collections of movements, the same way I see a zine as a collection of images. This way of thinking and making begs a necessity of scale to work effectively. Its not so much of a thing to imagine, catalogue and perform 100 Moves for Back Up Dancers, but something interesting begins when you ask for a possibly impossible 1000.

Planning for large format, or for longer processes, or for scope has often felt like a non-starter for me as an independent artist. Many opportunities to present work necessitate that the work be under 20 minutes, or that it already be in process before it will receive any funding. I have tried to fit my performance work into these models, and I often end up proposing something I’m not really interested in as a result. I swore up and down to myself this February that I would make a 20 minute duet that could easily travel around to different performance opportunities, festivals, etc. And instead I have spent the year creating the first 140 of 1000 “moves” with a trio (myself, Elanor Bock, and Kirsten Michelle Schnittker) starting a process that I imagine taking place over multiple states, many more collaborators, existing in many different iterations and documented in innumerable ways. My work has sprawl, which could indicate chaos…or ambition.

So how do you fund that ambition? How do you pay the people helping you to give shape to it, to create the thing you imagined, because now that you’ve imagined it - you can’t not make it, and you can’t make it alone? In the past I have used project specific crowdfunding and to good effect. Last fall when I did an indiegogo campaign it raised almost 130% of the goal amount. But I have also had my own issues with this kind of fundraising. The times I see campaigns for artists who’s work I care deeply about, but cannot fund that particular month or week come to mind. Creating rewards gifts that eventually take up more time than the project your funding.

I want to fund my work in a way that feeds the processes, reflects my larger constellation of practices, and honors the on-going nature of making larger scale work. I want the people supporting it it feel continuously engaged, and I want to cultivate a sense of accountability to them as I continue to create.

I came into contact with Patreon as a platform where meme accounts and twitch gamers could get paid. There was something a little “pay me on youtube” about it for me, initially. But when I noticed that people were starting to use it to offer tutorials in their mediums, or to offer additional content I realized that it could be manipulated into a platform that would answer the wants I named above.

The sprawl I’m making currently is 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers. 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers is a multi-part project that is a laboratory, archive and performance. My goal is to compile 1000 Moves in four different cities over the next three years, presenting this archive in a series of performances in each city with varying casts and conditions. 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers addresses the conditions of dance in America, the different values we assign to minimalism and movement, and a desire to acknowledge and reinvest in the dance work happening in geographies other than NYC.

At my first goal of $250 a month I can compensate my collaborators, Elanor Bock and Kirsten Michelle Schnittker appropriately and continue to develop 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers in New York City. This means at least 50 people would need to donate at the $1/month tier ( $1! ) and 80 would need to give at the $3/mo. tier.

Go check out the patreon page I made some videos with words coming out of my mouth, and one is the Warm Up for Life 1000 Moves Special Edition Workout Video available only to Patrons, at all tiers.

Number 1-140 of 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers

Numbers 1-140 of 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers is happening November 9th at Danspace Project! The showing is at 3pm and it’s free!

Please join myself, Elanor Bock and Kirsten Schnittker in the first showing of this work.

1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers is a project I began last spring. Initially I thought it would be interesting to create an obscene goal - 1000 moves - for myself and Kirsten Schnittker to perform as a short duet somewhere. Then the part of me that love collections, archives and “complete sets” of anything took over and I decided that I should amass 1000 moves, and that I should do this with four different groups of dancers in four different cities. Why multiple casts and locales? I’m interested in finding ways to tour my work that sit outside of traditional structures - because most of those are far too expensive. Also, I’m interested in de-centering New York City in my dance making.

1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers

The current project is 1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers, with collaborators Elanor Grace Bock and Kirsten Schnittker. 1000 Moves appeals to both my Virgo Rising and Scorpio Sun - the chance to catalogue and group hundreds of movements and the chaotic seduction of endless possibilities. This is a practice, and long term project (there will eventually be 1000 moves over multiple cities and sites) that is both re-teaching me how choreography works and providing another reason to dance to music with my friends.

1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers Moves 1-135 Instructional Video Release Party & Fundraiser

Late September 2019

1000 Moves for Back Up Dancers Moves 1-135

Danspace Project Draftworks Series

November 9, 2019

1pm